So Julia and I want to get married. i mean, that was the goal of entering into our relationship together. but, we also thought we had our hormones/emotions in check.
best. joke. ever.
it's hard to not be together. like, spending time with her is my favorite thing ever. we both really enjoy each other and want to spend the rest of our lives together. we want to be part of each others' lives more than we are now. but the thing between that and now is getting married.
but we can't exactly do that. our financial situation is tricky. and that's a nice word for it. money is tight. money for bills, money for several more years of school for both of us, money is annoying. i don't have a good well paying job yet, i'm only working part time and Juls doesn't have a job either. money is a necessary evil. i wish we didn't have to worry about it. but we do.
there's also school and my job. I'm contemplating becoming a police officer cause the pay is good as a way to build some financial stability while she and I go to school and get our degrees. Witt is expensive.
but, if i'm going to cscc/osu, and she's going to witt, that's an hour trip one way. so, where would we live? columbus by far has a better economy and is where i am going to school, but she doesn't want to go to osu cause she wouldn't like the class sizes.
so, we're kinda screwed. unless God has some super-awesome-mega-ultra-special-magic plan.
it's just tough to wait when you want to be with someone. we've definitely made mistakes, and pushed boundaries, and i wish we could erase that. but at the same time, what has happened has been great. i wouldn't trade the worst experience with Julia for the world. she means the world to me. and i hate that we have to wait to be husband and wife. i mean, it has only been 6 months. but she's my best friend. she respects me, trusts me, loves me for me. what more could i ask for? why do we have to wait to get married? i just want it to be done.
but what is God's plan for us?
I ask for your prayers. I wish we didn't have to figure a bunch of things out. and maybe we don't. maybe that's God's job. maybe i just need to put it all down before him. maybe i need to just stop trying to know everything.
i know i'm bad with letting God be in control. just please pray for us. we need prayers. thanks.
it's hard to not be together. like, spending time with her is my favorite thing ever. we both really enjoy each other and want to spend the rest of our lives together. we want to be part of each others' lives more than we are now. but the thing between that and now is getting married.
but we can't exactly do that. our financial situation is tricky. and that's a nice word for it. money is tight. money for bills, money for several more years of school for both of us, money is annoying. i don't have a good well paying job yet, i'm only working part time and Juls doesn't have a job either. money is a necessary evil. i wish we didn't have to worry about it. but we do.
there's also school and my job. I'm contemplating becoming a police officer cause the pay is good as a way to build some financial stability while she and I go to school and get our degrees. Witt is expensive.
but, if i'm going to cscc/osu, and she's going to witt, that's an hour trip one way. so, where would we live? columbus by far has a better economy and is where i am going to school, but she doesn't want to go to osu cause she wouldn't like the class sizes.
so, we're kinda screwed. unless God has some super-awesome-mega-ultra-special-magic plan.
it's just tough to wait when you want to be with someone. we've definitely made mistakes, and pushed boundaries, and i wish we could erase that. but at the same time, what has happened has been great. i wouldn't trade the worst experience with Julia for the world. she means the world to me. and i hate that we have to wait to be husband and wife. i mean, it has only been 6 months. but she's my best friend. she respects me, trusts me, loves me for me. what more could i ask for? why do we have to wait to get married? i just want it to be done.
but what is God's plan for us?
I ask for your prayers. I wish we didn't have to figure a bunch of things out. and maybe we don't. maybe that's God's job. maybe i just need to put it all down before him. maybe i need to just stop trying to know everything.
i know i'm bad with letting God be in control. just please pray for us. we need prayers. thanks.
